i moved on.. but i still love orbitso Off My Chest

i guess i never really moved on tbh. me and orbitso were talking for almost a month and he was literally cheating on me the whole time, which made me so upset and led to me breaking up with him. he always acted like he was single on his stories, and when i asked him why he just said "no one needs to know we're dating." i hated it so much. i still think about him and stalk him, and he’s acting like he’s single on his story now too, but he’s not. i know he isnt. everyone’s gonna think i’m weird but he is talking to this girl called "p" (can’t say her full name or this will get taken down). how do i know? his facebook and his mums facebook lol. my current bf and i are good but it'll never feel the same, if ykwim. and the crazy part is orbitso was cheating on "p" too. when we were together and i asked why he wouldnt post the pics we took, he just repeated "no one needs to know we're dating." i literally stayed with him even after i found out he was cheating until i just couldn't take it anymore... but i still want him back and it just makes me so upset and angry.